September 30, 2004
As a man of ridiculous ego (yes, still. It's a hard sucker to get rid of,) I have a tendency to want to take on the burden of "defending the faith." Because I've been blessed with a mind that wraps itself around the abstract fairly well, I delude myself into thinking that I am somehow equipped to take on anyone who challenges God.
But I can't. I don't have the power. I can sit in a coffee shop (as I did today) and discuss the topic with someone for hours on end, in hopes that through the process of reason and deduction we can arrive at the same conclusion. But reason doesn't mean much/anything when you're dealing with people. More importantly, reason doesn't mean much when you can't live up to your own beliefs.
Pick your starting premise. Objective truth. A world without God must mean there is no objective reality. Objective to whom? Do the "laws of nature" decide what is right and what is wrong? Does evolution tell us that lying to each other isn't the best thing to do? Why would I be required to subject myself to what "society" tells me I should do? The answer is I wouldn't.
Doubtful you'd get an argument there. Your conversation partner would likely agree - there are no objective truths, and we're to determine our own morality. But then you open up a history book and show them pictures of the Holocaust and ask them whether that was right or wrong. Or perhaps you hit them or steal their money or beat up their child, and ask them if that's right or wrong. If they are to live according to their beliefs, they must say no. And there's the rub. Suddenly the person does believe in objective truth in some sense. And we're back to where we started from - what determines objectivity? Who determines objectivity? Must be someone or something outside ourselves...
Logical? Sure. Makes sense. And so you continue on this track, probing and digging and asking and straining your mind to think about it. And every time you head down this path, your mind is left with one logical conclusion.
And then you leave and forget about it. Perhaps it's because the conclusion is dangerous or scary or requires something of you. Perhaps it's because your aunt or uncle or father or brother or son or daughter had something horrible happen to them, and the scar runs too deep. Perhaps it's because your life has been full of more bad than good and there's anger or hurt feelings.
Or perhaps you're like me, and it's simply inconvenient - perhaps it gets in the way of the rest of your life. You've pursued the deepest questions of your soul and found what you believe to be the answer - at least in principle. But it's still easier to believe in nothing, or believe in a God that is warm and fuzzy and very much like your grandfather who lives in North Dakota - a simple old man who lives far far away and just wants the best for you and everybody.
So we forget about it. We shove it underneath the door. We talk about how all roads lead to Heaven or how we're spiritual but not religious or how nothing it's all well and good to have a belief system as long as it doesn't impact any aspect of your life.
Particularly if you're a public figure. Even more particularly if you're running for office.
It's frustrating to watch so many people refuse to live what they believe. It's frustrating to listen to people who have the same ideas that their parents or college professors or favorite author or collective blob of the population thinks. It's frustrating to hear people spout the exact same banal ideology as everyone else, not knowing how or why it makes sense or what the conclusions are that must be drawn from said ideas.
If you don't believe in God, stop talking about what's right and wrong. Talk all you want about what idea or concept or policy would make your life better. Ayn Rand is right about that - in the absence of God, the only moral code that's left is your own self-interest. It's the only moral code there possibly could be.
But don't say a word about the plight of people in Africa or the evils of Sadaam Hussain or George Bush or Hitler. They aren't evil or good, not right or wrong - they are acting out of their own self-interests, according to their morality, and it is just as valid as your own. Ayn Rand is wrong about that - you can do anything you want including that which causes physical or mental or emotional harm to others. Why not? You're imposing your morality on them if you say otherwise. There is no objective truth outside of you. You can try to stop them, of course - by force if you choose - on the grounds that they conflict with your self-interests. But don't you dare appeal to some greater good, because such a thing does not exist.
If you are someone like me, you might be even worse. You sit and spout your dogma, and at the same time you sit outside of the conversation with mocking contempt. Who are you to say such things? Who are you to discuss these ideas and pretend like you actually believe them? Belief without obedience, without a life consistent with the belief, makes you a man divided against himself.
For either of you, perhaps the best policy is to stop talking about your ideology. Neither of you are ready for it - ready to live it out in your daily lives. And if you aren't ready to live it out in your daily lives, then your ideas and beliefs don't mean a damn thing.
The debates are tonight - I wonder if either of these men live their beliefs.
Somehow I doubt it.



